Friday, 6 July 2007
Dear Diary,
Alright, I give up. Still can't sleep, still can't sleep, still can't sleep. Weird, the caffeine at home which I always take didn't use to be so strong before. Or is it just my thoughts that have me wide awake. I would like to think this is a common occurence but something's holding me back, can't exactly put my finger on it.So i decided to post again as writting is much cheaper than therapy.Its wad is said.
Okay..Me n my mum has been okay since after dinner..Tis left me some confusion.AT times shes okay and i can gurntee tat we r NT gna hve probs again.its been happening since daes ago.Im not sure why.watever.I dont want to damage my brain thinking bout it 24hr without rest.
Tomorrow's plan will be going to Alysa's birthday party ALONE.Bot this choc called Belgian tat cost me 10 bux or more.Not me actually,my Dad's.I'll jus rap it later i guess.
I am repeating the songs we used to hear together. I can't sleep, I have to wake up at 6, and it's another sleepless night although my eyes are begging to rest. I am hungry a little.Today I realise that I don't put much efforts in friendships. I don't know how to go about doing it and right at this very second, I am thinking of McDonalds. Fuck I won't eat I won't eat. And And i think i need a course on sleeping cos ciriously,i am having a bad irregular and abnormal sleeping hour.
Something just cross my mind and reminded me of it.It's been long since this eyes met with his.Oh i miss Hazim :)
(A Bitch)Talking bout Fateness,wad am i?Your invisible muhfucker admirer's girlfiieeeey?From this moment,i regard u as my Top list arch-angel permanantly.Congrats!Find ur own DICK Girl.Stay out.
I can't stand rude people who thinks they can shoot their mouths off everywhere they go and still be worshipped. Idiocy breeds in your puny brain when you do that very often, bitches. These kind of people, I venture to presume, are too stupid to even live, let alone breathe the same air as us, the people of a higher class who knows what we are made of and partake in some introspection before putting people down. And when you're at the losing end, you kick the people around you so let me tell you, the first person you should kick is yourself. That is the classic idiot move, or I could help. Why don't I just ram my whole fist into your eye sockets? I promise I will be gentle! Oh, shut up, good-for-nothing Boyfriend stealer. I am not even angry, I am just sick. Are we all done with people who smell crotches for a living and hates people who are better off than them? Ohh...make it snappy, I can't stand these STD-smelling dimwits.
I know this makes the second post in less than 8 hours, but my fingers feels so alive, they just want to stamp every button on the keyboard, just for the sake of doing it.
Bye, I am sleeping already although it's not even 12 yet. Urgh, I feel so uncool.
23:15