Friday, 6 July 2007
Dear Diary,
So is this the time where I apologise for the lack of updates to interested readers who check this space regularly in hopes of finding a new entry, only to be disappointed? Well, sorry but I don't really feel sorry.. whatever....Its just tat...yeah my mum found it...so..tis diary tat was meant to kip all my secret has no longer become my "ALL secret,diary".
Yest went to KK fer my appointment and and they did tis heart check thingy on me and they found out tat i actually got a low rate and slow heart beat..yeah..nowander been complaining bout my aching after evry dinner..so they put tis device tat sticks on my chest..it looked lyke those shocking machine tat used fer those hus unconcious..and i have to wear it fer 24hr!oh gosh!and i cant exert myself too much..NOT FUN!so i guess i wont be living for long lyke others will..by the tyme my heart wont be able to pump.. :( Im ma miss this world by then..
oh tat Ardy is jus too annoying to be loved..he gives his shitty reasons thinking tat i will believe his werds tis tyme.you're choking on this. You don't know where your dependency lies. Eat those words back, the demons in your head will come round again.You've made a mess and now you're sorry but sometimes, guilt is not even close to enough. Open your eyes and realise on every morning you rise, that now you're on your own, kid.
Sori to my mum rili..bout writting bout her in here..i was mentally retard at tat point of tyme..
I don't feel empty, maybe a little happy, maybe a little sick.
13:57