Monday, 16 July 2007
Dear Diary,
Imy!imy!I jus couldnt help it..its lyke my drug wit my name choped on it.So i mean,a post wont do any harm,won't it?I have tis choclate tim tam staring at me now...I won't eat!I won't eat!:( ive been opening and closing the frige since i came back home.I don't really feel hungry tho ive not been eating since morn.Cos nthng to eat.This is wad happen when u mnotnsly dnt.You think u r hungry but u r not.It is said that your mind are stronger than ur physical body.okay.I am typing this but I have a different conversation in my head. It feels crazy. My stomach is empty but my heart is full.
Teenagers nowadays are high on drugs,smokes and all sort of 'cool trying to be'stuff but im making a huge,huge plan.Job?hu'd ever thot of it?i noe it sound impossible.Yeah..im thinking of lying hard on the streets with no disturbants.Interview will be forwrd till fri.All thnx to Him.Congrats i jus shit on my own face.Ppl finds it crazy to be crying and bathing in skool b4 heading home.But hu cares?I don't.If Britney could walk arnd the house naked,y cant i bold myself?
What if and what if.
I wonder what happens when you remove yourself from the usual way you've been living for 4 months and it still politely waits for you? This is beyond me. You fall in love when you're not even prepared, you do something which you can never claim or admit. You don't even know when is he going to finish what he started, and always so quick to believe, you read into the stares and the hugs faster than the world counting loudly from one to ten.
Ive jus watched 'Cinta pertama'.I'm more emotional than i ever think i am.Oh stop being such a baby.Right now McSpicy is wad exactly on my mind.I shuld jus walk for ten minutes.You noe,when im hungry,i wuld divert myself wit anything stupid.Sticks on wall upside down or wad so ever.
Verses after verses, your hypocrisy still echoes the loudest among all. Slow down and hold up, no one's listening, honey. You know you're fucked.
18:02