Wednesday, 7 March 2007
Dear diary,
"Bruise by your love,healed by your touch."
I don't noe y but i got this erge of killing someone today.Can you xplain to wad this 'Outside werld' thots im having.?Wait.let me think again,Nah...i dont need your opinion cos noone noes better themselves.
School?hu saes theres school fer me?there has not been ani such werd in mi dict fer the past two daes..Guess those dirt in me has taken over mi physical body.And probably mi mentally,Psychoistic,unstabled mind too."I NEED DOCTOR FAST PLEASE."
B goin to polyclinic afteron..N alone...Fuck!Blame those disease stuck in me..Wondering hows wardah coping wit it all...spposingly have to pay her $5 fer the dancewerk CD burner to wani's bro..gees...seems lyke shes gonna have a hard tyme 2dae...
Hazim?Don't ask me now.I'm half way under hypnotisation.I don't want it to get any werst,since he sudd did not call me yest nite which he usually does straight after werk.Or maybe he'd gone back wit his x Nadrah?I got the feeling its so..JERK!okaeh i'm 77% undercontrol of not myself now.Or HOLD ON!prob this two ans mi ferst quest?hmm...yadidadida..
Fuck up!Am not interested to hear anything now.
Gosh!i'm lyke having this voices conflicting inside.N wads more wierd is tat i tend to get high wenever i hear songs such as..lyke tis.*in such circumstances im goin thru now.N its a feeling of GREAT pleasure.Guess this is mi pill.
As daes goes by,i still am trying to figureout hu have i turn to after goin thru those past.I noe this sounds stupid n childishes fer not noeing hu u rili r untill now.Tis is wad happened to pampered child frem young.Wait,i got a kol now..
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It was frem wardah.**************FUCKS**************i am not made up of non-living material,am still human,tho mi mind r lyke satan.I cant go mit her n pay up now!I AM SICK!doesnt she understand?Lyke die die must go?sori i cant.(mummy wont let so)hais nomatter wad shes mi fren.im shuld b use to her by now..*2(breath in breath out)*
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